Today marks four (4) years since my husband made his transition to be with our father. In this time I have had sorrow, found joy, learned perserverance, lost myself, found myself and ultimately found God. I know what it means to know God as Jehovah Jireh (my provider), Jehovah Nissi (the one who protects and covers me, Jehovah Rapha (he who healed me, I AM (because there is no name greater in all the earth), Jehovah Shammah (the one who's always there). I've discovered and learned God in so many ways.
1 Peter 4:12-13, "Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you;If you suffer, Instead be very glad, for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world." I will be honest I couldn't find the joy, the reason, the promise, the light at first. But In my suffering I have gained so much more (see Philippians 3:8) I am constantly reminded that suffering that I have gone through is minimum compared to what HE suffered for me. I understand what it means now, to lay down my life and pick up my cross (see Matthew 16:24), it isn't comfortable or easy, but it was necessary for my life, in order to make impact for the kingdom.
Now that I see the beauty in my brokenness I understand it was necessary in order for me to be put back correctly... (see Isaiah 64:8) my first life before Christ, I was incorrectly constructed...I was so full of pride, selfish ambition, haughtiness, deceitfulness, hatred, un-forgiveness, strife, lust and so much more. So today celebrate with me my brokenness for in it I gained everything. John 15:13 " Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends."
Check out today's throwback Coffee and Conversations :Matters of the Heart https://youtu.be/dgV1U8kLGWM